Hansell Marrero Valentín

The breakdown.

1st Chapter

Alone, without no-one to speak without warning I star breathing hard without control the speed start to change in a blink of an eye I was inside of full-power panic attack. Without thinking about it I start to counting my heart pills. One, two, 3, 6, 9,… 33, 69, 108, …182.

So part of my brain had a self talk that sound like this:

-This is happening, I am ending my life, this is happening, this is happening now.

The phone ring it was Moises (just to give him a name); a long friend on this life, probably a brother or a mother in others life’s, who knows. Only time will tell!

-Two Easters ago (two years ago from my now) (I was on the beach 🏖️ in north Atlantic Sea side of the Island 🏝️ in the Caribbean sea call Puerto Rico or PR). We reach the beach and in under 10 minutes of being there a big wave 🌊 push around 20+ people with if, one of them did not came out… the family members were head counting. On my left side a so a body floating and somebody running to him, and I star running throwers them, another person joint us, everything happen so fast I fall, but I quickly recover and somehow we pull him out of the water. Sometimes we are not ready for an emergency, but I need to let you know that I have 182 pills 💊 and I am about to drinking them.

For some reason the call drop.

I fall on the floor hyperventilating, a 2nd call ☎️ came trough it was Eddy form the Neuro-Feedback therapy, in his last year to become a Phd. in psychology. I was not able to speak, but some how he knew.

Breath in, I am here for you, don’t worry I have time. -said the young Dr. to be.

Once again I lost the call.

The phone ring from ‘linia pas’ a helpline specialist call. -Wait I have my psychologist on the other line. Hola Fabian. I have linea pas en la otra linea.

Little by little I recover the control of breathing and I was safe.

Is so easy to loss a life in this moments.

I like to think that can explain everything with science but moments like my last June 25th I believe it was an Invisible Hand by connecting the people, for the right moment, the people with emotional, scientifically tested I will call this a Miracle. Letter we will speak about Dreams and why I propose that Miracles and Dreams are all made os the same substance.

2025/Sept Sat/ 13 @ 11:36 E.T.

Have you ever pay attention to the Great Shift we are all experiencing!

I just move to Richmond Virginia, with my 1st Son, creating a new horizon in the story of my life. For me getting old have been one of the wonder gifts of my life, seen the cycles. Like the never wrong teaching from Mufasa about the Great Circle of life, in the 1st Lion King Movie to his young son.

Now that I am at my 56+ and life with my son I can appreciate how lucky my life has been.

Why healing together?, you may ask?

“It’s like if ‘N’ amount of people are trying to cure themselves, with a ‘Y’ amount of other human doing the same without realizing that we are all trap in this little Blue Planet 🌎 we call home”.

Because I still healing ❤️‍🩹 myself, I am in no position to tell you how it is done. Don’t you think is just fair enough.

When you think about it, is like if I am healing with a group of people; that are in there own healing themselves. Healing is personal, is gradual and voluntary, NON-Linear. No one can force you to, you have to choose it!

I guarantee you that even the hero of many, Ellon Musk still struggle with his neurodivergent brain 🧠 ; therefore still healing ❤️‍🩹. We are all healing together one way or another.

We are inter dependent to each other for the first time in history we have so much; but at the same time we are so apart, so alone, so empty, so broke, so sick 🤒 in the body, sometimes in the mind.

But can we separate one from the other!? Its like separating the ocean from the wave, don’t you think!

What happen after the Break Down?

The breakthrough!

Today is my 2026 February 27 @ Richmond, Virginia

The Breakthrough is the default mechanism after the breakdown… if you are in the middle of crisis this may help.

-No down is endless!

Eventually you will reach the bottom of the abyss and you will have the bottom to support you, from there you will be able to climb back. Is as simple as that.

-No breakdown is endless, they are formless, they all happen for a reason. They all care inside the seed of wisdom, humbleness, bravery and resilience.

Breakthrough are mandatory in life and part of the breakdown regardless of the time they last. Breakthrough are like the dinner and the breakdown are like doing the dishes, you can not have one with out the other.

They are the way life help us grow!

The Pendulum

At the beginning of the 20th Century a small book was published by the pseudonym of The Tree Brothers inside 7 Law. One of them the Law is called the Pendulum. The book is called The Kybalion Hermatic Philosophy the book claims that ones you master the Mind you can have the Master Key to open all the Magic Doors 🚪 .

@ my 2026 Monday March 2 @ 09:09 S.E.T.

What is my promise to you?

I promise you I will show to work giving my best for the benefit of this book, your life and the future us as a society.

What do I need in return?

To believe me when I say; you are not alone. Healing ❤️‍🩹 takes time, also commitment and the wiliness to do what needs to be done in the moment, in the now. But that is it, healing is not linear, healing is possible and mandatory.

What is in my tool box?

Is not much but Kindness and a sense of duty but with the intention to add some value and context. I have over twenty years as Hypnotherapist formation, 12 years as a Dharma Practitioner, my formal education is in Marketing/Management, tones of experience as a Sales person, a fun formation as a Toastmaster Club.

Being a successful father, grandparent and survivor of my brother suicide death.

This are some of my credentials also I am developing a new skill as a Peer Recovery Specialist but for the moment I am here as your peer.

When I think about becoming a Peer Recovery Specialist as well as a writer few things comes to my mind; having overcome my Brother Death by choice is probably one of the most conflicted ones.

1st is my Path!

2nd is hard, always had, always will be hard to write and to speak about my little brother, but today I can share my story.

3rd Suicide reality has an eco that is in the silence 🤐, consciousness of our current society (regardless time, nor place), and I am trying to break that silence so we can heal without judgment, fear or shame.

4th I am Autistic, with ADHD, Dyslexia, Dysgraphia, Dyscalculia and I also have the Tourette Syndrome. (I will return to this later but all of this have done nothing but to makes me resilience.)

[2026 Monday, March 9 @ 4:40 pm/SET]

Why do we Break?

This is a very good question!

Why do we break?, and what breaks?, are part of the question we need to address if we want to help someone help himself or if you want to help yourself you also need to address some of this fundamentals.

Why something breaks is as important as the when, and how? So pay attention to the material am about to share with you because we just have 9 chapters

Breakdowns are unavailable they happen just because life is life!

Probably because life is hard and they are so many unfairness around us that is probably so common that we may think is normal to be depressed or experience panic attacks. In this book we will have an overview around how to overcome depression regardless of who you are the helpy or receiver or the support. I hope this book will give you the basic guide line on how to request help and how to help others.

Why do we break? Because we are humans; even machines breaks. Breaking down can happen in different ways to different people this book 📕 looks for the bright site of the shity 💩 reality of depression.

“The pile of shit!

Sometimes the pile of shit we have to just go through just to reach the ground floor is overwhelming. Depression can be trigger by a great number of things but regardless of what originates the depression it feels like a sinking ship”.

…but it is not!

Breakdown can happen to anybody!

After my youngest and only brother choose to not live, I broke down. In the process I created a support group called ‘When we can not say goodbye’, in the Administrative office of the American University in San Juan Puerto Rico.

Breakdowns are part of life, are the price we pay to grow up.

There is nothing wrong about requesting for help, not admitting the breakdown will delay the help but there is a lot to gain when we do ask for what you need.

You are the Captain of your life!

Let’s try to see your life like a plane. You are flying your solo life. When you are in distress you call for Mayday to alert others that you need help. This is the best way for you to survive when you are alone in the sky.

I believe that one of the most important lessons that this book can bring to your life is the understanding that you are responsible for your life. Once you understand this you can free yourself from most the situation you my encounter yourself in, including depression and anxiety.

The story of the pilot who needs help and calls for Mayday is the story of the survivor. Count this life had been lost as a result of not declaring an Emergency.

The other way I can present it ass you were the captain of a ship and you need to call for a S.O.S.

Did you know that in most of the cases were ships are under a S.O.S. crisis. The situation became worst just for the mental denial of the crisis. In many cases the call for help was postponed; making the situation worse.

The reaction of most of the people is to denial, this happens in real life treats as in plane or ship as well as facing grief, depression and anxiety. Its like a defend mechanism but when you face depression or anxiety they are in the middle of recovery.

What do you think will happen to you when you acknowledge the breakdown?

You open the door to receive help. Helping others it’s what makes us humans. It doesn’t make us weak. It makes us stronger always remember that you are part of a society. You are a fragment of the society. You are a link in this membrane of systems the stronger you are, the stronger you make others.

I am about to share with you some of the most painful experiences of my life. I don’t do it because of me or because it’s easy or hard. I do it because it’s important. It’s important to speak about depression as a any other health problem. This include anxiety disorder and everything in between and especially for my neuro-divergent brothers and sisters inside and out of the Spectrum.

Who do I am writing to?

To you; the human who lives in your body, who breathe and for some reason the idea of ‘healing together’ got your attention, theres something of been vulnerable that make us unbreakable. There is so so much I would like to share with you in a very limited amount of pages so please stay with me when I tell you that no matter what you’re going through no matter what the challenges you are going through there is a beauty in life in the air that fill up the lungs, your lungs, and my. This book is about addressing depression in a cool way in a hopeful way.

This book is about Tools and new ways of thinking in relationship on how we can heal together from depression and anxiety. When my youngest and only brother choose to end his life in a big way, he end up my life too; the life I knew before is that it’s long gone.

Too many years have passed but today I can try it with some wisdom, some understanding with healing in hand and Tools to help you and to help others. Today I write to you as a peer to peer.

Understanding the interconnection of the society we live in. It’s pretty unlikely to have plenty of peace, of happiness if others that we love around us are unhappy or unwell today I believe that if you want to heal yourself, you need to do it together not alone but with others who are in the same journey as most of us are.

Who are the demographics that I am speaking to?

First, I would like to speak to the family member. If you are struggling with someone who’s going through a major breakdown I’m here for you. I wrote this because I believe that you are the great hero behind the shitty life of being depressed. At the beginning of this book, I knew I wanted to speak to the person who is going through hell, to the family or friend who’s helping this person to the survivors like myself.

If you or someone you know that is neuro-divergent or is going through hell it might be not the divergent but who knows maybe it is without knowing it.

So this book speak to N amount of people; to the person to who is in depression, to the person who’s helping, (including the staff the medical aid or mental professionals who’s doing it best to help someone).

The person who is going trough fire 🔥.

The person who survive the person who chose not to live 🤷🏼‍♀️.

The person who is helping the person in depression.

…and the neurodivergent brothers and sisters in all the spectrum.

Who do I think will read me the most?, and Why?

The helper! Friend, the family, the father, the mother, the brother, the sister, they coworkers who sees somewhere in need probably after the breakdown and you do not know how to help so this book is for you.

The logic behind this is that the person who need this book the most is trap in a unbalanced brain and needs help from the outside a person who is in depression a person who lost the world to live. It’s very unlikely to be able to read this book, it’s not impossible. Regardless of of who you are as a reader I believe in the power of the mind.

The power of believing, the power of dreaming

For years I have been saying ‘remember faith and miracles are made of the same substance’. I choose to believe that this book will at least save the life of one person. If this happen I already won more than any price more than any gain. This book is with the dream to live in a society where people choose to live.

My dream, my desire is to write a book that can touch your life in a positive way; not just to talk about depression but how life is after that chapter is close.

…drops of ideas!

This may be hard to read but I believe is important specially if you are going through depression, no matter where are you in this conversation you are… is not your fault. Please remember this as we go deeper in the journey of healing ❤️‍🩹 together.

What to do if you are under a panic attack or having suicidal thoughts?

Panic attacks. Get could water on your face. This will bring your brain to the now. Go outside, call someone. Breathe in. Remember it will last yet couple minutes.

Suicidal thoughts. Avoid been alone, activate your support group, if no one is available call the Suicide Help Line of your country and ask for help. Go to the ER if need it! Believe me when I say live is wonderful gift.

What to do if someone you know is thinking, talking, planning to end him/her-self?

Don’t let the person alone. Make sure him/her know and fell he/she is important to you. Look for help, usually people fail to see the clear warning because is hard.

When my brother end his life I felt surprise but looking back all the signs where there but I could not see them.

Speak about what matters in life!

I write with the main intention to just safe one life.

Maybe two, maybe few. Why you may ask, just because there is no need for somebody to end his/her life; because I understand the pain of being the survivor and the hell of wanting to scape.

For years, I have been postponing this book but the story chose me. I am stronger to write about how much I miss my brother and how grateful I am to have meet him even though he’s not here.

Tools, ideas and more!

Break downs are hard, complicated and dangerous. If you or someone you know is dealing with Suicide emotion, fantasist, event joking about it, if the sings are so clear, is mandatory to take action about it.

Do it!

Medication

I will go deeper in the bio-chemistry and the Neurology of an brain under-depression but for know all you need to know is that during breakdown is when people make stupid things like choosing not to live. For this reason I started with this chapter with the lower point.

To the survivor

If you lost somebody by suicide I am here for you. You are one of the reason, one of the whys I wrote this book. It took 14 years of my life to heal my brother decision; 14 years of shame, hitting pain, judgment and more. Is like a prison sentence but sooner or later healing becomes part of the new reality, of here and now.

It’s hope that I want to sell you!

I am writing to you because somehow I understood that this is not a alone journey or at least I shouldn’t be. Did you know that occurring to some scientist the most important moment in human evolution was when people start taking care of each other. There is a fossil of a human who broke his leg and it was heal. Investigators and the beautiful minds explained to us that for the period of that person recovering others had to take care of him healing together is the most human way to heal.

This book touches a sensitive side of the human experience, but I would like to present to you a scientific view of depression and anxiety.

‘Dreams and Miracles are all made of the same substance’.

What do you believe?

At the moment my brother had the ‘brilliant idea’, 🤷🏼‍♀️ to end his life we both were atheist what we call today hard atheist. We both believe in science, in material evidence, logic, chess, mathematics and nothing else; I was like my friend Dr. Sheldon Lee Copper (character from Big Bang Theory) atheist to the bone.

When my brother and I were child our Mother told us that God or god (depending on your believe system), used to created an extra punishment for the spirit of the person who die by suicide. Whom have to float off the body as the decompose. The funny thing is that my logic mind was in conflict with my fears of that childhood.

I do not remember if it were days, weeks or some month but after my brother death events start to happen. Events like the TV or the PC came on for no reason. This events that I like to call by ‘abnormalities’ usually happen at 02:00 couple of minutes before a couple minutes after but always around two am. Sometimes even the door open for weeks or month; I did ignore this events. Into one day a flower base fall on my side of the bed over the night stand. It was not the wind, but something make it fall. The next day in an effort to find an explanation I research the earthquake data, but I found no movement near the time of the event.

There was nothing, no earthquake but something move that flower base. I could not continue ignoring my own experience. I remember the difficultly for me to process the paradigm shift. I remember that for three days I was all confused, happy and sad. I have discovered that there is life after life.

I was wrong!, there is something after life!!!

The sad part is that my brother made a decision based on wrong data or so I believe into proven otherwise.

For years I did research I found few answers, but more questions that answer this book is not about believing that there’s life after death but is about believing and understanding that the decision we make have an eco in other life.

This book is about the power of Healing Together!

If the unexplained story about my brother after death is 12% real. Ending your life is not the escape but the real trap 🪤 itself .

Do we have the right to end our life?

No we don’t.

I used to believe that yes of course we had the right to choose between staying alive or not. My brother death shape my understanding of many of my core beliefs. When you consider the recovery ❤️‍🩹 time it takes to heal the Suicide death or attempts of someone you care about are astronomical. The damage created by the person who end his own life are measured in some many forms one of them is Depression, with capital D.

If you are the survivor I am here with you…

Did you know that the survivor will inevitably will suffer from some type of depression. The closer you are from the person who choose not to live the harder will be the recovery. For example in the case of a parent or the child who choose not to live, will one of the most challenging grief you will ever encounter. If you are a father or the mother, the son or the daughter I have no words except ‘I am here with you’, and I invite you to read me with hope and purpose. And together make a society where people full of hope, friendship, values, kindness and compassion. Together we can create a society where people do not have to opt out.

If you are the support team (the friend, family, parent)!

Have faith!

It took me 14 years to finally be ready for me to be able to write this book. Today I dream about devoting my life to assist other in over come their depression and anxiety attacks. Dreaming to live in a city where people choices to live, in a country where people ‘do not up it out’.

You may call me a dreamer, you my be right!, to what I will reply:

‘Remember Dreams and Miracles are all made from the same Substance’.

Now allow me to tell you this; dreams and fears are constructed in the same dimension. The future! When you take the biochemistry of fears vs the biochemistry of faith you will see that one give you high levels of cortisol or the stress hormone and the other of oxytocin or what many call the love hormone.

If you want to help someone to move away from depression give them solar exposure, exercise, a reason to love or to have faith about.

…about healing together, where do we star? With the Sun!

Why solar exposure you may ask?

Because we are animals, not minerals, not bacterias, nor machines we are regulated as any other mammal on the planet by the Sun.

Did you know there is a molecule in your eye that once interact with the Golden Light of the Sun to set up the master clock of your body?

Remember there are no magical medication, they are powerful medication 💊 that we will speak in chapter 4th But none of them are magical, this is important for you to understand regardless if you are under-depression yourself or helping other to overcome come theirs.

Medication can help so far, the rest is up to you! Like taking the time to enjoy the Sunrise and/or the Sunset.

Miracles and dreams are made of the same substance.

For years I had been fascinated by the most simple and profound question like for example Does God exist? If so, can we prove it? If there is life after death, can be prove? If Miracles are real, why do they sometimes happen and sometimes does not? Why some people achieve there dreams and some others do not? To where or to what is the Universe expanding to?

I obviously and clearly do not claim to know the answers of all these questions. But I believe that I know what miracles or dreams are made of the components.

The best way to see it. It’s in a simple algebra equation.

You take dreams plus action minus fear, and attachments. This is equal to certainty.

Or

D+(A-f-a)=C or Certainty

Certainty is like riding a bike!

Is an act of balance, energy, momentum, speed, vision or direction of where you going. It’s not something you knew. Is that something you will do, certainty it’s something you do like riding bike or a wave.

I write because I have faith that my words will touch someone’s life and will save their life. I write because believe this story chose me and no matter what I do, I cannot walk away from it.

I write because I believe because together we can make a difference.

At this moment in my now, I live in the city of Richmond!

I used one of the best free bus 🚍 system in the East Cost, imperfect for some but perfect for me and my needs to travel 🧭 around the city, thanks to the GRTC.

Note: 2026 May 13 @ 12:57 EST

Note: 2026/May-Monday/ 25 @ 09:26 S.E.T.

James Clear is the writer I choose for me to at the mental hospital the 1st and only time I have been in a hospital; Clear and his Atomics Habits plant a seed in me. Writing a book is not necessary easy. Specially a book ‘that nude my soul’, around 12 days has passed between the last effort to write and today my 12 days late or am I 12 days wiser to write this who knows the answer to this?

But one thing is for sure James Clear is in the back room of my mind reminding me you want to call yourself a writer right today right now with this acknowledgment in place let’s continue this journey.

How to support a person in need?

If you ask me how to help some one who does not recognize that needs help or if is not is willing to receive it?

I wouldn’t say: Don’t waste your time, because there is a lot to be done even when someone don’t see there core believes and action are the rut of there challenge. Remember is so much truth a person is capable to see at once. We need to be compassion even to the ones whom are unwilling to move; but don’t wake away, maybe you are the support without even knowing it. On least this person is toxic to your life!, but this is material for another another chapter. This is truth and important but remember to always take care of yourself first.

How to support a person who is willing to receive help.

I have been studying multiple religions through my entire life from different perspective from different point of view. NOT from the text but from the but listing and sharing with the believer, the doer.

How to support a person that is willing to receive your support.

They are multiples ways in which you can assist somebody, always and clearly based on the moment, the person, the situation but listen when I said that there is some special attribute in giving.

Some religions or believer are more naturally open to receive help from there support group than others. This book is Healing Together one Soul at the time, because we can not heal all at once.

Of course it will be wonderful if we all could live in a city where all citizen are well, happy, self-realize, center, productive and more. I love this idea many have dream about for centuries. Some have even try to create perfect society USA is one example of the dream of many. Sometimes I even dream how will be to create a Micro-Nation fell with just Autistic people and other Neuro-Divergents but reality is not based on wishful reality is complex people takes time to heal.

You cannot force somebody to heal because you love that person is not that easy.

What to do with the people who are not willing to receive your support. Let them be where they are. Respect their decision. You don’t force, you do not judge. Remember you are your own priority helping yourself is your first duty. Once you are strong enough you can start helping others but at the end is us the as the title of this book, we are all healing together one way or another. We are all healing together some of us for something, some others for something else.

Note: 19:55 One day to produce one page.

Break at 21:56

Note: 2026 May/26 Tue 06:44 EST

How to support a person that for pride, pain, shame, ignorance or who knows what reason is not willing or able to receive the help that needs?

Always remember that the least we want to do is to judge somebody in need.

As you cannot force anyone to change, you have to respect the decision of each person; but the question remain.

How do you help? Well, it’s so little you can do, but you can be patient. You can be there when the call comes asking for help and you can be there in the silence. Believing as you continue your journey with others that in one way or another are all contribute together in this quest of a better day.

How to ask for help?!

With honesty!

Obviously and clearly this is a very complex question that have many forms to be answered but let’s break it in groups

Who are you asking to?

What what is the help that you need?

From how long do you need to help?

Does the person that you are requesting to help that requirements to help you for the skills?

Do you trust this person? Does this person trust you?

For example, for me to finish this book, I asked my best friend Moraima to keep me accountable to ask me once or twice a week. How many pages did you write this week?

As James Clear from “Atomic Habits” says to me in paper and ink, you want to call yourself a runner then run, if you want to call yourself a writer then write. Thank you Mr. Clear, gracias Ms. Edwards.

How to ask for help oh my! This ADHD is all over the ink of this book.

I’m going to answer this question with a short story I would became an with this idea;

Nosce Te Itsuv or know yourself. Knowing yourself will let you know the limits the frontier of your tots every time you ask for help you invite somebody to continue with you every time you ask for help become humble and humbleness is an a state of mind. A state of freedom like no other. You can see it in the movie Matrix Revolution in the relationship between Neon and Trinnity.

My good friend Brenda I. Colon invited me to enjoy writing this book and mention something that you can se all ready. This book is not mentally organized by the neurotypical but the contrary the Neuro-Atypical, the Neuro-Diverse.

So my apologies to the people that person whom follow the grammar rules and the pre organize structure of the typical book.

[Base on my observation most of the people that are overcoming substance abuse are not necessarily overcoming the substance of preference but the emptiness that leaves not having the desire fit… Behind every addition there is closet of skeletons call memories of shame, pain, trauma, and more. Sometimes we barrie them in alcohol, pills and more.]

Note: 2026/May-Tue/28 @ 08:00

L.K.P. Happy, alive, determine!

Yesterday at the Pulse Bus (metro system) around 21:30 ET (9:30pm). A person told me How grateful he was for his wife. A moment later and curious I ask for his wife, to what he reply: What wife? I tould him what I understood! To what he reply there is no wife, life… I am grateful to live!

Let me share some of my story with you!

I discover my Dyslexia when I was 18, my ADHD at 33 my Dysgraphia and Dyscalculia at my 34 and my Autism at my 54.

…as I was sharing!

2026/May 29 @11:23

How to heal yourself?!

Wow! What a wonderful question don’t you think!?

I will propose that I know 33% of the answer, and you know the other 33% and the great Invisible Hand knows the ‘One’ and together the ‘We’, knows the other 33%. I would propose that we can heal together that you can heal yourself with or without me. YOUR SOUL knows what you need, your inner-mind knows how to heal yourself and/or how to help others in their journey… but there is something powerful about doing things together.

Did you notes that giving and receiving are like the same force but moving in different flow, like alternative current; both needs to be present for the flow of energy to move. I will get back to this ideas but for the moment just think about giving-receveing like the Gin-Yan, or some of the Laws of Physics.

Healing yourself is not only possible but when you really think about it is the only way, because no body can force you to choose.

Note of Gratitude to the Travelers.

I will do my best to honor the the paths of others Travelers, regardless of traveling to the east or to the west. ‘Agradecimiento’ to all the Travelers that are Searching for the Light.

@ my present 2026/May/30 @ 09:37

…where I was?!

Ah! Healing Together!

Includes Healing You, yes you… No matter the reason, nor the timing or the why you are reading me today. Remember the basics you can not help others if you do not take care of yourself. For you be well you needs to have contact with the Sun light, drink enough water, have exercise, eat well, have and enjoyable sex life, sleep, honor yourself and others and more.

Why is this important?

09:58

16:21

This is important because we are fragments of the society, we are part of the chain, the stronger you are the stronger you make the chain, metaphorically speaking… this is important because when you take care of yourself you make yourself stronger, not weaker… Valuable member of the family, of the home and much more.

Know your why!

Know your why!

Understanding your why is as important as everything else. During the formation of this book, I had the opportunity to be part of 72 hours Peer Recovery Specialist. In the training, the trainer mentioned the importance of knowing your why in the instance I did stand up and wrote it to my ideas board for this book understanding why is as important as everything else.

I have been doing my best to write to the person who’s helping and the person who needs the help. It’s not necessarily easy to be clear when I am writing to whom, but they are some key elements that are regardless of who is listening to me in this moment can make a difference.

I mentioned before the idea of the giver and the receiver this is not necessarily a new idea; but they realization in which we cannot receive if we don’t give, as well as we cannot give if we don’t receive. For me it’s mandatory to understand that there is no difference between helping or being help.

Something that I learn from a autistic friend, is that every time you give yourself the opportunity to request for help. You open the gate to receive the help at the same time you show to another person that requesting help is healthy makes you stronger, not weaker but stronger and probably even wiser.

What do I mean by know you why?

Why do you want to overcome the challenges that you have been facing regardless if it’s depression and/or anxiety; your why is one of the key ingredients in healing. I am not sure about this claim but let’s assume there is a master key. I will probably guess that ‘why’ is the master key in anyone’s hidden journey in my opinion it’s at the core of healing.

For my, they are my kids and grandchildren they are my ‘why’, I choose to make myself as strong as I can.

If you are not a parent maybe you why can be achieving something of great value for you or a friend or family member you want to honor in some way. A dream a gold in the future.

Remember they are two aspects of Healing the Body and the Mind.

I mention before seeing the Sun light as a way to take care of your body. This is the physical, the hardware and the mind is the software. Your why is like the Sun but for the your mind. Helps you to keep yourself focus in what matters to you.

Other way we can see it is through the eyes of a compass during the dark night the compass will always point to the north or to the south, will ALWAYS give you direction. This is why it’s important for you to understand and to know your why because in the darkness moment you will need to have a strong motivation.

This is so important that I will like you to take a moment for you to write your why?

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The power of meditation

2nd Chapter

2026/June/1 @ 12:54

In my journey of life, I have been visiting multiple religions. I have been learning through the eyes of the believer the doer, the practitioner in the quest two Masters come to my life. Both equally important, but unique in my relationship with them.

In one side I have YeShua of Natharet (better know as Jesus), and Buddha Shakyamuni. Please keep in mind that I am not selling you any idea, just sharing with you so ideas that I believe will add value to you, and the ones around you and one of the most important is the Power of Meditation.

13:30

I don’t know if I can prove all of this or maybe we can prove it together but regardless, I’m going to claim the following Joshua of Nazareth influence the Kabbalah the Reiki school, Parahmajansah Yogananda. Even the Koran, the school of Allan Kardec.

When I learn that without YeShua there will be no Kabbalah (at least as know it today), I was impressed. The power, the life, the sense of duty of this Man inspired me to be practitioner to his teaching like ‘be kind to others and to yourself’.

2026/June 2 Tue @ 10:55

Note: As I continue writing I continue my healing journey. Today and thanks to DARS (the Rehabilitation Department of the Common Wealth of Virginia). I am taking therapy to be more specific ‘sound therapy’ to train my brain relax and avoid unnecessary anxiety.

A brief introduction to Buddhism!

Buddhism is the Americanization of the practice. The way I understand it is like when practitioners came to America. They spoke about Buddha so people called them Buddhism but from when you are inside, we call Dharma and the word Dharma can be translated and understand in many ways, but basically means the teaching or the purpose of life.

In some traditions like the Tibetan Schools the teaching move from Teacher to student this is with the intention and desire to warranty the best training possible. Other schools are more flexible, but regardless of, there is always a mentor or practitioner and a apprentice.

‘I am both and none’.

…but I will do my best to present the power of Re-Wire your brain and guest what is the main component to achieve neuro-flexibility using many tools but one of the most powerful is the power of meditation.

Let ask you what is meditation to you?

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19:45

I have the training plus 20 something years of experience as Hypo-Theraphys. I do not know many things, but I claim I know the Mind, when I think I about it; I remember that the mind I believe I understand is like the water between my hands.

I don’t claim to be an expert in anything except in the elusive behavior of the mind. At the same time I acknowledge the fact that the mind is so elusive that is probabilistically speaking is impossible to fully understand it, making my claim false.

I would love to speak for hours and even days about the history of the mind and the study of logic, the mind and more recently consciousness but this book is about Healing Together, so I will as simple and brief as I can but please keep this idea in mind.

Yourself is made of parts and subparts. Some of them we can see it like the brain, the hardware but other like the mind is harder to pinpoint. If you want to help somebody heal him/her self and medication if part of the plan of action, remember the medication is creation a better balance brain, but still brain or wardware, the mind is like the software of who you are.

When you upgrade the biochemistry of your brain you also need to upgrade the software in your believes.

2026 June 3 @09:07

14:36

The correlation between the Mind and the Brain… 🧠

Remember that I claim to be an expert in the mind even we know this claim is statistically false due to the complexity of the mind it self, but never the least I will use science, analogy, observation and validation to defend my claims.

Something that I learn about us (my brother and I) is that we both were autistic, he was an Autistic with a schizophrenia, and I came with ADHD.

It’s like if different Autistic Brain come in different modules, upgrades, capacity and specific performance. Lets say brains comes in modules. I think we are clear up to here. Now lets claim the mind is like a software if you change the software between hardware, you will have different results. Of course this is a oversimplified way to see things, but get the point across the hardware predetermined the outcome of the mind.

2026/June 4 Th @ 09:51

L.K.P. Happy and determined!

In the book Buddha’s Brain the practical neuroscience of happiness, love and wisdom. Ph.D. Rich Hanson and Richard Mendius, MD., they present one provocative idea. Maybe will take us 300+ years to fully understand the correlation between brain and mind.

Don’t you found it ‘Provocative Idea’…

Returning to the proposal that we can see Autistic Brains as different types of model. I will get back one time after another because is the simples way to describe what a brain can do and can not do.

Did you know that some physicist and some biologist claim that the mind is non-local.

I am just a simple Writer an Apprentice, what I mean by this is that my limit space can not devoted to understand the non local of the mind (if this is the case), because at the end makes no difference if your mind is generated by the biochemistry of your brain or is non-local. The reality is that is the brain and the mind that needs to heal.

2026/June 6/ @ 08:05 ET

Note: Felling’s

I feel sad, I feel alone, I feel confuse, yes this is what I feel in my now. Maybe you believe or know someone who don’t like to speak about felling. As I write this book I experience my own life. I experience the sadness of losing a relationship, a home, a place…

10:46 L.K.P. Sad but mentally determined

…the more I write to you, the more I learn from me!

The 1st time my friend and Dr. Antonio N. Torres (psychiatry in training). Show me set of proteins between neurons, and told me -Those are memories!

That was the moment I finally started to understand the science behind the idea that the brain creates the mind. On the same of this reality science has proven the power of Neuro plasticity; In other words the mind can reshape the brain, the physical form of the brain by meditation and training.

[If you want to heal together, we must be honest to each other. If we want to heal together, we must be accountable for each other.]

The purpose of this book is to create a path in which we can meet in this journey of life for me to accomplish this the best way is to tell the stories as honest as I can. I hope this will be value for you and many others my proposals are not.

In my journey of healing around six maybe seven years ago, I was ending journey of three years of around 40 to 60 hours of full meditation weekly. I believe this reshape my brain during doing that. I couldn’t let go my love for JeShua of Nazareth better know for my friends Christians as Jesus in this book we call the Bible. It is mentioned in at least four times that Jesus was meditating. he retreat to meditate retreat, the body and the mind and He quiet his mind. During those first month of meditation for those three years. I imagine Jesus on my right side and, Buddha Shakiamuni on my left side meditating with me. I imagine them teaching me how to meditate my special relation between these two masters between these two men between these two mind’s between these two human beings is very special and very unique. I don’t invite you to follow both as I do or I like to believe I do, but I invite you to find in Yeshua one of the graders minds in the art of meditation.

((He probably did not teach it too many of us with some claims he did who knows what is real and what is not, but we know that he went away to call his mind in moments of great preparedness.))

2026 Sun June 7 @07:09

L.K.P. Happy, determine and present.

At this point in my life, at the beginning of my 60th I am religion less. Never the least I carry my costumes with me my Buddha, my GoHonzo, my bell, my Jesus and my Malah. Many times I come to the wisdom of YeShua or Jesus (Jesus is a lost mistranslation according to experts in this YeShua was his name in this native language having this clarified).

YeShua is my Teacher and Mentor when I want to fast, when I want to believe. When I need to train my muscle of Faith or Being, I come to YeShua.

When I want to quiet my mind, or discover my own fears, attachments I come to the Buddha the 1st Great Psychologist in history at least for me (and until this now). I could tell you more about may relationship with them but this book is about Healing Together…!

In my yesterday I had a brain storming with Lara Shaeiffer around Uncovering Autism and creating Penny University Events. We spoke about how the techniques for anxiety Disorder regulation do not work for an a Autistic brain. Is n’t this interesting?!

In all of this ideas is your mind involve.

08:05

19:13

Sometimes I wonder wonder…

2026/June Mon 8 @ 08:09 EST.

L.K.P. Happy and hopefull

Why do you want the benefit of meditation.

The simples anwer ‘because every advantage is an advantage, every benefit add to you and the people around you’.

Remember the title Healing Together everything is a lot easier when you find people as you, whom are in some state of healing something or at least the lucky ones that have the opportunity to help others.

Why do you want the benefit of meditation? Let’s start with a simple one you will calm yourself when you are calm (by meditating) you increase blood oxygen in your brain. You are allowed all the systems to calibrate or recalibrate.

Did you know that you can even reshape the reform of the brain itself by meditating?

Let me share a short story with you at some point in my early beginning in the course of Buddhism or practicing Dharma I encounter a woman a Nun. It was very hard for our center Ganden Sheprup Ling to make an agreement with her, but the effort pay off and we got the opportunity to have her for a full week teaching the simples meditation of them all. She was one of those writers who became a celebrity because she moved to a mountain in India and expend over 10 years in ‘claustro’ in a small mountain. Help and sustain by the community she expend years after years in meditation, obviously with breaks to eat, write and more.

2026 June 10 @ 1:44 PM.

Note:

How to write about overcoming depression and anxiety when visit me without warning, how to found faith in a godless world?

How to overcome depression, please don’t tell me this symptoms are like having diabetes!?

God where are you when I need you the most? How do I finish this book and my word finishing does my words have value? Why do I feel this way? Why is she visiting me again?

2026 Jun Thu 11 @ 07:21

Note: In the movie Matrix in the introduction of Neo with the Oracle on top of the entrance of the kitchen there is small sing in green and black tones with the fallowing message:

‘Nosce te itsvm’, ‘Conocete a ti mismo’ or in English ‘Know yourself’. This is very important in the movie and in real life in matrix they representing the idea of, if you want to know your future you need to know yourself think about this for a moment.

To my readers…

I hope the last few pages have giving you and idea of what is to be reading this book will be like. I hope I have inspired you to believe in the power of Healing Together. Living with depression and anxiety is no easy task nor for me or you or any body. I am doing my best to help others by sharing my experience. This is my invitation to you to be part of this journey.

I have in mind a Neuro-Plasticity Program that includes, movie nights, events, like Penny University, Hiking and Camping Together…

I believe that hope alone is not enough we action, and let go of what ever we don’t need anymore.

2026 / Sun / June 14 @ 06:29

L.K.P. Happy, focus and trusting.

Note: 1st set of editing by H.M.V.

Note: End 1st editing by 2026 Thu June 18 @ 2:12PM.

2026 / Wed / June 24 @ 09:22 S.E.T.

Note: 2nd set of editing by H.M.V.

@ 09:25 Random note to my experience as a Traveler. I wonder what fear and hope are made off?

Note: 2nd set of editing by H.M.V. @ 05:04 S.E.T.

L.K.P. Happy to be alive! @ 05:44 sound of fire truck small break

2026 / Thu / July 2nd @ 12:00 S.E.T.

End of second self-editing

2026 / July 22 Wed @ 04:27 Getting ready for the 3rd set of editing. L.K.P. Happy, determine, clear and focus.

2026/August 3 Mon @ 08:48 Continue 3rd editing (after a short visit of my Daughter). Finish draft to be tested…

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