What a great question is the 1sr though that comes to mind. My name is Hansell I like to write as “el hermano de Grettel”, I had been writing and publishing without excuse nor interruption for the last 12 weeks. This happen after a new diagnosis.

ASD or Autism Spectrum Disorder…!

I was (and still am) so happy, to have finally found the full understanding of my brain. That without planing I return to written without thinking, but rather ‘feeling’.

…and today I will let go on the side my note book of notes and I will do. My best to share with you; what is like to be neuro-divergent?

I could start with the understating that this is all about mix feelings. The other on a small group of adults (young adults) in a focal or support group call M.E.R.I., I choose the word ‘resilient’ to better describe myself. The group leather ask me why, and I reply:
-Because this is the story of my life.

I am not sure if I am able to answer this question in just an small post, I feel like I rather write a book and just dedicate a full chapter to this simple but elusive question.

Lets start with to basic concepts:
What is typical, if you want to understand something atypical you most know what typical is.
…and to make this even harder what are feelings?

If I am about to share with you what is like to be neuro-divergent, I assume I most also know what those feels like.

To be honest I have know idea of what are emotions or feelings, I do know… but I don’t….! I am not sure. I am not sure of anything, my mind is in the though, in the thinking, I now I feel things like everyone else (or so I presume), but explaining or describing them is another ‘continent’ for me. 🤷🏼‍♀️

…never the least let me do my best!

What is like to be neuro-divergent or @typical (atypical),

It’s like been alone! Home alone…! Alone in the quest to make this planet a better place. Alone in the conversations… most of what we call ‘typical’, speak, talks and share… more of the same negative, irrational and incongruent ideas.

Did you know that most of the people are mostly lying about everything… I do not know if they are even aware of the patter; but when you look and lisen to what they say and do, you can easily see there ‘in congruency’. It’s irrational!

This makes me challenge them and myself!
-‘Am I wrong!!!?’, we are social creatures, we need each other for basically everything; safety, survival, eating, shelter even for sex we need someone (in most of the cases). We grow old with others… this other are usually what we call ‘typical’. So if they are typical and you (or in this case me) are @typical or at least quirky you ask yourself.
Am I the one who’s wrong?

So!, to answer the question or at least to do my best. I need to say that is a lonely place. Sometimes this feeling is come this a warm feeling, some others is kind of sad.

Today and after reading and learning about ASD I have come to the conclusion that my brother and I were bout autistic. Did you know that today science has found that they are not 100% pure Autistic people.
We come with a full package, in my case ADHD and the cousin’s, Dyslexia, Dysgraphia and Dyscalculia, but my younger brother came with Schizophrenia, others come with Bipolar Disorder.

As humans we have the tendency to see things half empty but in reality things are neither nor full, nor empty, they are just are. Never the least been @typical, come with some super power, like hyper focus. Autistic people are honest they do not like to like, they rather tell you the truth.

For example if you ask me:

Do I look fat with this dress? I rather say the truth but for some reason beyond my understanding honesty can be offensive. This is something hard to live with… 🤷🏼‍♀️